Last full week of high school. Ever.
Ive never felt the feeling of bittersweet before. Sure i may have assumed it’s gonna be a bittersweet feeling, but i really have never felt it in my life.
This is what it must feel like - to have every emotion from opposite extremes clashing. It’s such a horrible and messed up state.
Of course we’ve all had those moments where we “can’t wait to get the fuck out” of high school forever, but in reality, im sure even a pinch of reality creeps on you the last few days or so. Right now, it’s more like grabbing my whole system of emotion and carelessly dragging it back and forth. Or maybe im just too emotional?
But who really cares at this point? Im sure as hell everyone has or is feeling this at this exact moment of our lives. There’s excitement, and yes im also excited, but there are also dreadfulness and sadness.
Just like so many people ive encountered, the concept of growing up scares the shit out of me. Why? Because for one thing, it enables us to be more mature - more strict, more weary, more careful, more knowledgeable. Dont get me wrong, that sounds cool and all, but I also really love just being young, naive and careless. The world was a much playful and special that way.
But i guess we’ll just see what this week brings in each of us who are graduating. Whether we all live it up, as we should - but also whether there are tears involved, which there may be. Whatever the case is, im glad im experiencing this - as with everything ive experienced in my life.
Let’s give it our all, class of 2012!
